I do not entertain men in the same sense that other women do.
They want to wine, dine and please them, community no exception. I do not do this. I am a shaman, and an elementalist, and I am “void” inside myself and do not feel fleeting throbs of love for someone I barely know or someone I am intimate with. I am old soul/spirit but at the same time if you are sacred to me, then you are and I will let you know it, But if its only been one night and we’re just banging I am not gonna fall in love with you over night.
I do not like, or fall in love with others. I know my mates and they know me, its either you get it or you don’t with me and you either understand or you don’t. Like is infautation and so is falling in love with someone, you are crushing on them pretty hard. I don’t mind being alone or strong and by myself but at the same time I am not going to chase you up the road or down it because that is playing games.
If you are someone too me if you screw that up I am walking away from you. That is disrespect to me my time and my mind and body and spirit. No thanks. You may in time once again be about me but only if you grow up and I think you will be good for me to interact with and it won’t be just a “hey I just fucked you and you were horrible” sorry attempt at trying to tell me or show me I am nothing to you. Awesome, I am single again and a free spirit and don’t have to be with a bastard. Grow up because you can’t bend someone to your wills as this is not the love you seek.
When I am bonded to someone and I have been many times, I do not feel “right” to you because my mind, spirit and body is one being, one all which is shamanic and ascension. I am not a human lifestyler with fake teeth trying to impress you with my big boobies and my corset and poo. I am not going to undo this because this focus helps me hunt, it helps me with magick and it helps me handle my shit. There is a reason why I am considered the dark one. I am one and I am.
If this is to much for you to handle you are free to hit the door. I am very serious in what I do and how I live and I live right with no drugs or alcohol other than maybe a small shot glass full of medium dark red wine for my heart, bloodstream and menopausal issues, once every three months or so, I am good being alone. There is nothing to do but accept how it is with me or be gone.
No one whom is real vampyric and latent wants to be loved by fan girl love. You seriously need to grow thefudge up.
Aka, we don't allow much interaction from "infatuation" as a crush is "fleeting" and may come or go. But if I really do admire you i will tell you. you just as an empath will not sense it in my "heart".. vampyres don't do this. Not real ones anyway. it is the
one body/mind/spirit" = the void you feel. Non human beings get down in a different way.
Plus, if you have been with other kind, I am not going to want to be with you anyway. I do not get off on lifestylers, fakers and wannabes. I never have and never will. I an unique and only attracted to my own kind. I also do not like “old men” vampyres. I like older men in temperment with a young face. I have hung about elder kind but not in a sex way because that is disgusting to me. I do not need a mommy or a daddy figure in my life, and I have not needed one since age 18. Ewwww.
People think since I am transcendal they don’t know what it means and I am perverted and all this when this is some form of ego and id. A me me me attitude. You want to be pleasured wickedly. That is disgusting. Transcendal means I am very old world and can do what “folklore vampyres” are rumored to do more or less. I am a very noble, polite individual, unless you piss me off like everyone else. I prefer not to live like a junkie, 19 yr old, transcient being of the streets, scared and afraid to trust anyone so I gotta spread my legs in order to eat food…wtf. No Thanks. This is not a Anne Rice novel.
PS. There is certain man in the community and he believes I should be more human/e when that is not what I am about. I wanted to understand, and still wish to understand, true form, actual elementalism shamanism and vampyrism, and my theories are working. Unfortunately, there are some weaker beings out there whom are not down with this form of hard core shamanism, and that is not my problem.
You want the life — well the real life is not a cushy human/e joke where we all luff fluff one another and we huggle and we cook for one another and live rightfully in the home and the woman cleans all the time and the man sits there and plays with his dick to porn and plays fort nite until he’s so exhausted he wants to make lub and he’s so worthless in action by then his brain is kooked and he falls asleep on top of you.
Gone is the day where woman is the nurturer. This sounds bad, but nurturing is a joke. Life does not nurture. And we should not either.
Men need to realize a woman is a formiable ally just like his brothers, and we can cook, clean and hunt just as well as they can. It may sound ancient, but this is the kind of being I am. That other shit does not work.